Hello Fellow Hair Bloggers,
Over that past couple weeks I have been having a struggle with dealing with my natural hair as the weather has been getting colder. I don't know if I said before, but I am a college student (actually, i graduate December 19th from Undergrad and I can't believe it's coming so soon!) But that being said, I have a ridiculously hectic schedule. I work about 19 hours a week, i have 13 hours of classes a week, and trying to fit in study time, friend time, and fun time has just been ridiculous. And let's not talk about trying to do my hair!
So as I showed in my last post, i was trying to rock the 2-strand twists. I still haven't perfected that, but I went and bought some rollers and some twist/lock gel, that will hopefully be helpful during my next try. With my past week being so busy, I have not had time to twist my hair. Which has been kind of rough because I had a decision to make: Wake up early every morning to condition my hair in the shower AND dry it (since I really should not be walking around with wet hair every morning) or stay up extra late/wake up extra early sometime this week to twist my hair.
I actually ended up doing neither. PLD (Poor life decision) on my part. I haven't really taken good care of my hair this week, and my hair is screaming in protest. I have put in a leave-in conditioner every day, and a scarf on it every night, but I have not been making sure that it was not getting tangled and matted. So it looks kind of a hot mess.
Here is the time where I take a moment to evaluate:Does my hair really look like a "hot mess?"Because it's not looking particularly curly, or one texture does that mean it is not still beautiful?Of course, I really should have been taking better care of my hair, but because it's not in perfect curls, does that mean my hair looks "bad?"
I actually haven't decided on that yet. The first half of the week i thought my hair looked somewhat decent. But by Wednesday (the one day I don't work at the front desk at my job and can actually bum it for a day) I was quick to put a scarf on my head, I just wanted to cover my hair up!
I started to realize that I was once again deciding if I looked good/presentable on everyone else's standards of how Black hair should be: smooth, shiny, every hair in place, relaxed... not what my hair is at all right now. It's a curly, frizzy, coily low-mid sized afro. All of my relaxed hair is not grown/cut off yet. It looks like it's confused. Is it ugly though?
That is something I still need to work through. My perceptions of myself, and whether or not I will let societies perceptions sway me.
Thoughts for next blog:-Why do I have to straighten my hair to do job interviews (and my experiences from my interviews last month)
-Considering just doing "The Big Chop" (I kind of want to do it before December rather than transitioning from relaxed to natural. But I still haven't decided.)
-Pics of my before-to-now hair
Until then Blogosphere,
~Lista~